Are you into the concept of a threesome without the inconvenience of trying to fit three people into a bed? Well, you're in luck, because here we have two minds for the price of one body! One of them's a complete monster and the other one's the Mind Flayer. The bad news is that neither of them are willing to get a haircut, but if you can look beyond the mullet you're in for a truly wild night.
not really dating had a bunch of people i hooked up with
[ That means a bunch of people who thought he was going to date them but that he dumped after a week or two because he's afraid of commitment. Thus, 'don't' is probably the best advice anyone can give about dating him. He's a gross playboy and a heartbreaker, not boyfriend material. ]
when you're alone you can do whatever you want, leave whenever you want, get into trouble if you want if you have people you care about that shit's going to affect them
You don't wish you had someone to share those things with? Once I realized I could teleport back home, I could've gone anywhere. Antarctica, the Bahamas, Egypt, the Taj Mahal. But I didn't want to go alone. I wanted to stay with Sam and Dean, because they cared about me. No one in Tahiti knows me. I wouldn't belong anywhere there, I wouldn't have a home to go to where people wanted me there, where I felt safe and loved.
[ Well shit, way to hit him right where it hurts. Billy knows, deep down, that he does want something like that. He just doesn't believe he can ever have it, and whining about what he can't have isn't a good look on him.
So, as much as he wants to say 'yes, I want all of that, but I have no one to care about me because I push everyone away and am too stubborn to ask for help and have massive trust issues on top of it', all he can type is... ]
[ while jack's insightful when it comes to the more sensitive things people conceal, he doesn't know billy as well, and he can't really make a call on if he means that or not, so he takes his word for it. also, it's a lot harder to judge from text. besides, billy's lived all of his 17 years, unlike jack, so be probably knows what he's talking about. ]
Oh. I can't imagine being happy without it. Maybe it's bad to be that dependent on people for your emotional needs, but I guess I just like connection more that I like going places or doing things. I know it's not always good. Sometimes there's people like my birth father who're supposed to care about you, but they're just... monsters. But on the other hand, the good I've found is worth it, I think.
You can probably go a ton of places in the great sleep you couldn't do as easily back home. Where do you think you'd want to go? If you could go anywhere you could dream.
I'm sorry, about your old man. I think I ignored a lot of things and let other people get hurt because I wanted to see mine be someone better. The good people aren't perfect, but they try. They care.
That sounds like it'd be a peaceful view. Like you could put music on, roll down the windows, smell the sea and hear the waves. Usually when we drive it's farms, cornfields or mountains.
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Mine says to leave me alone.
Were you dating someone at home, before Deerington?
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had a bunch of people i hooked up with
[ That means a bunch of people who thought he was going to date them but that he dumped after a week or two because he's afraid of commitment. Thus, 'don't' is probably the best advice anyone can give about dating him. He's a gross playboy and a heartbreaker, not boyfriend material. ]
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Did no one want to date you?
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i just don't like to settle down
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You don't want to get to know people?
Is that part of how you don't want any friends?
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relationships hold you back, man
i gotta be free to do what i want without anyone getting in my way
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if you have people you care about that shit's going to affect them
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Once I realized I could teleport back home, I could've gone anywhere.
Antarctica, the Bahamas, Egypt, the Taj Mahal.
But I didn't want to go alone. I wanted to stay with Sam and Dean, because they cared about me.
No one in Tahiti knows me. I wouldn't belong anywhere there, I wouldn't have a home to go to where people wanted me there, where I felt safe and loved.
You don't want any of that?
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So, as much as he wants to say 'yes, I want all of that, but I have no one to care about me because I push everyone away and am too stubborn to ask for help and have massive trust issues on top of it', all he can type is... ]
no.
i don't.
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Oh.
I can't imagine being happy without it.
Maybe it's bad to be that dependent on people for your emotional needs, but I guess I just like connection more that I like going places or doing things.
I know it's not always good.
Sometimes there's people like my birth father who're supposed to care about you, but they're just... monsters.
But on the other hand, the good I've found is worth it, I think.
You can probably go a ton of places in the great sleep you couldn't do as easily back home.
Where do you think you'd want to go? If you could go anywhere you could dream.
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you can't even rely on the good people. but i was way older than you when i learned that.
[ If Jack is actually just one year old, anyway. ]
i'd go to the beach i guess.
or pacific coast highway. with just me driving on it and no one else.
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I think I ignored a lot of things and let other people get hurt because I wanted to see mine be someone better.
The good people aren't perfect, but they try. They care.
That sounds like it'd be a peaceful view.
Like you could put music on, roll down the windows, smell the sea and hear the waves.
Usually when we drive it's farms, cornfields or mountains.
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most people can't be better
you just end up wasting your effort
[ And that includes him, so stop trying. ]
that's what it's like where i was before i got here, except no mountains
farms and corn are not much of a view