[ This is a good start, no hanging up.]

I-- I fucked up, okay. It's my fault all this-- shit happened and you got caught up in it. And-- it's shit, man. It's really shit.

[ Steve's been sitting on this for an hour or so. He'd wanted to apologise properly but hadn't been brave enough to to do it, so he got drunk. And now he's here.

And there's a lot to say. Sorry Billy if you want to say anything he's going to ramble a bit.]

Like I get it. I'm an idiot and I rush into stuff without thinking and I just keep thinking that you're sick of people bullshitting you and fucking around and I don't want you to think I'm trying to mess up your life or something, okay? You've got this tough guy thing going on and you don't give a shit but I ate you, dude. That's so messed up. That's messed up on so many levels and I'm trying to apologise because it just makes me feel so sick-- having to go down there today with Jack and fix it-- make the ghosts go away but that doesn't make it better or right.

[ At this point he realises he doesn't have anywhere to land this journey he's going on ]

Okay so. I'm sorry, okay? I guess that's what I'm trying to say. I'm sorry.